Monthly Archives: October 2014

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Abramelin, day 204

Morning rite and noon prayer rite well.

The second person last night in the past week told me the same thing: that something is going on with me where I am not communicating what I feel and I am about to explode. The first person was looking at my aura and chakra reading and came up with it, now last night similar deal. Given how ridiculously outspoken I am I can only think of a few things this could possibly elude to. But given more than one person has told me this, I cannot ignore it. Hm.

So. Many. Readings. Very busy yesterday.

Evening rite went well.

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Abramelin, day 203

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

Spent today at the Salem job, did pretty well–even got requests for me as a reader. Crazy amount of time spent in psychic zone and as usual, was totally riding the high until I got home and absolutely crashed.

Evening rite went well.

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Abramelin, day 202

Morning and noon rites went well.

I keep stopping to jump up and down and dance for joy that I am no longer in that job. I had no idea how much stress it was putting me through until it was over. Spoke to my agency about it and they saw the lying my boss was doing, put a very bad taste in their mouths and they are not happy.

They called back some hours later with a potential position and one that wants to move quickly: a 100% remote position. It would mean less money but HOT DAMN that is what I need to turn this ship around and work on getting the side career(s) to the point where they would be more viable.

I didn’t sleep well last night, heading to bed early tonight.

Evening rite went well.

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Abramelin, day 201

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

At 11:03 the two following things happened simultaneously:

  1. I had a meeting with my boss which was openly hostile, including outright lying to my face about what has been said and done over the past few days let alone months. Was actually surprised I was not fired during that meeting.
  2. I got an email from the wand maker saying that the wood to be used for my almond wand was damaged and it would take at least another month or two to get more wood.

There are no coincidences. In any event, some hours later I am out of a job despite best efforts because it is not believed I will finish on time. I am honestly RELIEVED because while not the worst job I’ve ever had, is easily at the #3 or #4 position. And I’ve had a LOT of jobs.

Gods I’m glad that’s over. Now I have time in my life to get the rest of my shit done AND I can work extra hours at the part time job in Salem too. Bonus!

Evening rite went well. All is in the hands of the gods.

 

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Abramelin, day 200

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

200 days of this operation. Do I get a cookie?

Another phone interview today but they revealed at the end it’ll require 20-50% travel. Nonononononononononono. Next!

Face to face interview with yesterday’s phone interview company scheduled for next Friday. It’s near where I used to work, excellent commute. Fingers crossed.

Been feeling tense and irritable for much of the evening, not sure why. Way too much going on, I think, and all of the recruiter calls and emails while trying to work isn’t really helping.

Boss wants to review the work I’ve been doing so far, again, tomorrow. Yes, that’s probably contributing.

Evening rite went well.

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Abramelin, day 199

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

Today was phone interview, work, more recruiter contacts, and just general Monday whatever.

It also occurred to me how many of my goals could be helped by doing more chakra balancing meditations. Root is so much better than it used to be but could stand more love. I’ve been looking for more avenues of increased manifestation and I think that might grease the gears for me, so to speak. I typically listen to a bunch of subliminal mp3s with sounds of waves and water as I go to sleep that are for each of the chakras, so I made a separate playlist specifically for the ones which need the most amount of help.

Met a friend for dinner whom I haven’t seen in a while. Between job drama, kitty drama, car drama, family drama, Abramelin drama, been pretty separated from the world. Not a bad thing, probably the only way to get a high extrovert into doing so.

Got to get in a brief cuddle with my kitties. It’s wonderful to see my previously sick cat running about like a kitten. She’s also light enough to pick up and cuddle now, and makes the most adorable purrs when I do so.

Grateful.

Evening rite went well.

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Abramelin, day 198

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

Good day of readings, nice to have the opportunity to help others. Took time during my lunch break to get an aura photograph and reading done of me, and whoa.

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The throat chakra in particular terrifies me, but the third eye one covers my whole face. I blame the Abramelin.

Still exhausted but not as much today as yesterday.

Evening rite went well.

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Abramelin, day 197

Four hours of sleep last night because nothing is sacred.

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

First day at the psychic/tarot reading job went well, helped many and did well on tips too. Apollo was with me. 🙂 Everything is getting sharper and the more I exercise these skills the harder it is to “come back” and I realize I can’t, the floodgates are open.

Night was coven event, very intense. That awkward moment when you have to ground before ritual. Given how it went glad I did.

Evening rite went well. Exhausted on so many levels, sleep now.

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Abramelin, day 196

My dreams are getting weirder and weirder, even for me. Some of them are absolutely hilarious. Some are downright fucking disturbing. My communications with people both online and off are getting stranger. There are people populating my inbox with a slew of “hi”s that are starting to look like Tourette’s. You’d think no one knows that I’m in the middle of this rite and the rest of my chaotic life and no, I’m not super social right now nor doi I want to be. I can’t blame this on Merc in retro (it’s been going on for WAY too long), I really just think I need to keep my distance from people as much as possible. Good luck with that with both job #1 and job #2, however.

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

I am exhausted. I’ve ordered vitamin D supplements online, I may need to start them early. I’m not sure what else the problem could be. Nothing else about my diet or routine has changed.

Evening rite went well.

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Abramelin, day 195

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

Today was a bit smoother than it’s been. I am hoping despite the apparent insanity that things will work out.

I am exhausted every day. I don’t think that this is good or a good sign. I’m just constantly tired.

Evening rite went well.