Monthly Archives: October 2014

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Abramelin, day 214

Morning rite went well.

I absolutely for the life of me cannot remember if I did the noon rite or not. I don’t think I did, so I did the rite super late and plan to do a prayer rite right before I get to sleep.

Today was sheer madness. Had a super long face to face interview which, despite me going in expecting to hate the job, wound up liking it and everyone was incredibly awesome. Got an offer two hours later, a bit lower than my usual salary but certainly not doable plus very good benefits. Negotiating the whole time off thing because now I KNOW that the Abramelin rite closing will be at my choosing, I will have to take a week off, probably around the holidays. I’m guessing around winter solstice/Christmas time. It feels right for a variety of reasons pertaining to my own faith. This also makes me nervous because this makes the ending more of my choosing and a having to take time off from work versus have it be in between jobs. Ugh.

I’m also terrified they will micromanage me to depth, restrict computer usage, etc. If I’m treated as an adult while there all will be well otherwise it will be horrible and I will burn in flames.

Heeeeeeelp.

Went to a fall festival dinner at one of my fav restaurants which I had gotten reservations for ages in advance, not knowing I would get an offer today. ahaha. Did the wine pairing thing, HUGE mistake. Tiny portions of food, way too much alcohol…doesn’t matter how much I pray over it, I guess Dionysos missed me. No, this doesn’t mix well with the rite. Lesson also learned.

“Noon” rite went well, as did evening prayer rite.

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Abramelin, day 213

Morning and noon rite went well.

Spent today dealing with recruiters and cleaning. The job I want wants two additional phone interviews with remote people plus a personality test. I think I have this one in the bag but fingers crossed and no counting chickens before the offer letter comes in and all that. Also got to wish my dad a happy birthday and talk to my mom about the latest family drama concerning my grandma.

Got to spend the evening watching Agents of SHIELD with the kitties.

If I get asked by one more company “why so many jobs” I am going to scream.

Evening rite went well.

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Abramelin, day 212

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

Another day in Salem. Went well although nowhere near as busy as yesterday. Yesterday was nuts.

Very, very aware of how much that needs to get done this week. Glad I have some time set aside to relax, go out to eat, get a massage, etc. I need the downtime. Also, need some kitty cuddle time.

I’m spending so much time in altered states that being in the rest of world is starting to get weird.

Once again finding myself in a position of having to stick to my ethical principles even if it means bowing out of a group. A shame but so it goes. I keep finding more and more issues with the Hellenic polytheist community; there are a number of good people in it but too many assuming roles of leadership who really have no business doing so. More and more I am realizing I will need to strike it out on my own, maintain friendships but ultimately do my own thing. I don’t know if I reacted the right way about it online; I got a bit fired up about it. But it’s an issue which has come up before and has shades of the whole “x deity told/commanded me to tell you all xyz” which I find incredibly distasteful.

I also got to finally communicate how I feel about a difficult issue with someone, which makes me incredibly relieved.

Evcening rite went well. I need to spend more time in meditation and offline in general.

 

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Abramelin, day 211

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

31 readings in all today. Today was almost as busy as it normally gets around Halloween. Crazy! Got to help many, many people though. Very happy about that.

Days and nights becoming more and more surreal. Time for sleep.

Evening rite went well.

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Abramelin, day 210

Morning and evening rites went well.

Crazy intense dreams all last night, don’t know what to make of any of them.

Face to face interview with what appears to be a good company. Fingers crossed.

Worked after in Salem doing tarot readings. Did well.

Lots to do and think about. Evening rite went well.

 

 

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Abramelin, day 209

Morning and noon rites went well.

Now on antibiotics. And if my dreams last night and what I received in my inbox this morning were any indicator, heat’s turning up again. But in other news, I am quite happy that fear ‘n’ feces demons of the past are now mangy little mutts trying to hump my leg. Success is its own reward.

I was right about the offer I wish to turn down. Too much game playing right now. Recruiters doing it too. And yet another interview too focused on “all of the jobs” and insinuating that I’m “attracted” to unstable companies. One of them happens to develop software even my mom knows about, hardly tiny little startups that this happened with, and oh yes I pointed this out. I take absolutely zero bullshit.

I need to leave IT for a far better career.

Evening rite went well.

 

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Abramelin, day 208

Morning and noon rites went well.

I spent today dealing with a job interview, recruiters, etc. Made appt for doctor visit tomorrow as I’m fairly certain I have a sinus infection. The weather has been HORRIBLE as have my stress levels so not shocked.

I have an entire rant I don’t have time for at the moment about jobs and what this entire society has been brainwashed into thinking is normal, but I’ve summed up my issues with this: recruiters believe they own me. Employers believe they own me. And I am tired of it.

Evening rite went fine but done in bed. Was so drained I couldn’t even move let alone get into the temple room. Tomorrow is another day.

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Abramelin, day 207

Morning rite went well. Noon prayer rite done in car on way to work, got called in for a shift to do readings again but had to leave early for an appointment.

I’m starting to stress about the interviews and I’m realizing how much I intensely hate this entire process, my main career, and how badly it drains me. Half a day for these interviews, all of them. And these people think I’m still employed as all of them were scheduled when I was.

There has to be a better way.

Evening rite done in bed, was suffering from horrible stomach pains. I blame it on trying to eat too much for dinner after not having eaten much past few days.

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Abramelin, day 206

Morning rite went well, noon prayer rite barely happened but got it in.

Worked again today doing tarot readings,had one person tell me I gave her the best 15 minutes of my life. She badly needed to hear what I had to say. Was grateful to help.

Dealing with some congestion and trying to fight back with increased fluids, juicing, sleep, homeopathy.

Evening rite went well.

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Abramelin, day 205

Had a dream that I upset someone who thought I was Catholic while doing this rite when in fact I am a polytheist. My sole reaction was, “You’ve known me for how long and it’s taken you THIS long to figure out that I’m a polytheist? What?” Odd dream.

Morning rite went well, noon prayer rite done late. Too much going on.

I’ve never before this year had any requests let alone this many to do readings to see how loved ones are doing on the other side. Sign from Hermes, I take, to get my ass in gear on the mediumship stuff. What vibes am I giving off?

Evening rite went well.