Odd dreams all night, probably due to the stomach issues. Woke up in pain but went back to sleep, then dreamed of being passionately kissed by a certain angel from a tv show. If that’s not Abramelin related I don’t know wtf is.

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

So much work to do but stuff is falling into place. I am going to need some serious weekends to myself. I am nowhere near where I want to be, where I’d like to be, where I NEED to be. I do feel like I’m moving forward but there’s some things which feel like a chasm I don’t know how to cross.

Evening rite went well.

Morning and noon rite went well.

Totally drained today but managed to get some laundry and other errands done. Having stomach issues, probably due to two days in a row of having New York bagels. Oh New York bagels I miss you but you are death to me over certain quantities. Damn you mild wheat intolerance.

Found myself engaging in old habits online. I blame the being drained and being frustrated with processing certain shit.

Evening rite went okay, I mentioned disconnecting me from the Internet to my gods and HGA and sure enough, 30 minutes prior to bedtime the Internet on my laptop mysteriously stopped working. They really do take me at my word. Internet was back up in the morning.

Morning and noon prayer rites went well.

Spent day driving home and getting both personal and business work done.

I will definitely need the rest tomorrow.

Evening rite went well.

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

Spent day relaxing with family, also managed to get more Abramelin incense and charcoal for the rite.

I keep getting jerked back and forth between normal awareness of what is going on and an over-abundant awareness of change and the passing of time. That whiplash again. Still battling personal bullshit too. Surprisingly challenging day, felt like review of past crap in a way. Wonder what made it come up. Reached conclusion later that I am sleep depped and it does me no favors. Gentle reminder to self to get better sleeping habits.

Evening prayer rite went well.

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

Got an early dismissal from work, was able to prepare and pack for Thanksgiving travel.

Very close to finishing my nutrition certification, have signed myself up for a class for my NASM fitness trainer certification as well. With any luck I should be able to take the test when I’m done and pass. Also got an invite to be on Rufus Opus’ podcast discussing my experiences with the Abramelin so far, so look for that. More details when I have it but should be in a few weeks.

It’s a time for dealing with loose ends.

Evening rite went well.

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

Still chugging away at work. This is a strange place. I don’t mean that as a complaint; they just seem a bit disorganized. We’ll see how it goes.

I’m going back and forth between reading Seven Spheres by Rufus Opus and Domain Driven Design by Eric Evans. It’s whiplash.

Optimistic as ever.

Evening rite went well.

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

Heard back from the almond wand place, they’re trying to get in touch with the wand maker for an update and will let me know soon.

Work has picked up the pace DRAMATICALLY. In meeting #2 had this overwhelming feeling I was just where I needed to be. Everything is falling into place.

For the first time in a while, I’m feeling ridiculously awesome and optimistic.

Evening rite went well.

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

Had rite to Hekate in the evening, was a pretty intense ritual but one of those where I knew right after that the effects would not be immediate but take some time behind the scenes.

Leaf raking, that time of year. Am wiped. Came home after the ritual, did evening rite, then passed out.

Tomorrow is another day.

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

Good day in general: payday, got to leave early, went to the movies and out to dinner. Struggling to get enough sleep, hoping tonight will be far better.

Still reading Peter Kingsley’s Reality.

Evening rite went well.

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

Sleep depped but got some personal shit sorted out.

Day spent improving my diet and working out and getting shit done online. I feel so productive and I haven’t even been given “real” work yet to do at work.

Evening rite went well.