Wow, my dreams last night were fucked up. NO idea what brought those about, but seriously not cool. Some serious purification/cleansing is in order. Cleanse and purge indeed.
Morning rite went well, considering.
Day went okay. A few trying moments at work from the usual suspects but otherwise fine. This evening however was…chaotic. Too much multitasking to try to get stuff done, wound up completely fried.
I did however reach some valuable insights on a longtime problem that’s been troubling me, and I think it’ll also help me immensely with the Abramelin operation. I need to sit on it and meditate some more on precisely how to go about it, but I think I’m finally off on the right track. There are also some things I want to guard myself from in the process, and I think I touched upon a few of them tonight. In essence, I need to reclaim some stuff that was lost but without discarding stuff I’ve gained. Already in realizing what I need to do I have found myself pulled back today into shit I haven’t been involved with in years, including some old Internet habits which will Serve Me No Good. I may need to cut back on my Facebooking or find a way to be more moderate with it. I’m sorry, folks, but I have a big mouth and when I see certain things I have to speak up. It’s a huge part of my personality for better and for worse. At times it’s beneficial and at times it sucks me into drama llama which is more distracting than useful. I will however admit to enjoying batting around the occasional Internet troll with my paw (insert cat imagery here). They amuse me far more than they annoy me.
Today’s theme at work, in dreams, and online seemed to be all about Bullies and How to Respond to Them. It seems that for the most part and in most cases, humor utterly disarms them. Unfortunately in some settings that’s not always possible.
Evening rite went well. It’s interesting how I have these little quiet insights that slip into my mind, sometimes while doing the rite. They’re useful. Tomorrow I leave to visit family, and as promised, it’s “do your best and forget the rest”, as Tony Horton of P90X fame would say. If you can do the Abramelin while sick and unable to leave your bed, you can do it while traveling. I put some crystals consecrated with Abramelin oil in the corners of the room and on the Abramelin altar, and plan to bring those with me as sort of my traveling temple room, so to speak. I won’t be able to do candles, incense, etc but I can still do the prayers and keep up the fight.
No excuses. All obstacles are a part of the rite and are a necessity to growth.
Also some nice insight in abundance and attracting abundance not just in terms of health and wealth but also time. I never feel like I have enough. It’s time to start attracting some more.
Didn’t get to do much of the purification and cleansing I wanted to, but I got some laundry from my bedding done. It’s a start.