Abramelin, day 94

Morning rite went well.

Today I went the entire day traveling, during which time I had the chance to reflect on a few things. More and more “coincidences”–I put that in quotes because no such thing exists, really–keep happening, and are guiding me towards things, people, and opportunities I wouldn’t have had otherwise.

Tomorrow I have a face to face interview. It will be whatever it will be.

Some realizations I’ve had: I’ve been either trying too hard and doing the wrong things, banging my head and wondering why it doesn’t work, or doing the right things but inconsistently. I need to work smarter, not harder. I need to strike that balance between putting in the work and the organization I badly need to do, but also do the “non-working work”. I need to know when to do one versus the other. I need to know how to do both. And the lessons I’ve been learning in the so-called material world apply to every level and facet of my life. Wax on, wax off.

I am a work in progress. I am wet clay.

I had to get things quieter. Everything’s so subtle. You have to be in listening mode, but not trying too hard to be in listening mode. Everything around you has to be quiet enough to get it through. I relaxed enough for it to get through the cracks, and now I see what happens when I am no longer stressed, on edge, and in alert mode: I can receive what I need to receive. But it’s so subtle.

Evening rite went well.

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