Abramelin, day 82

Morning rite went well, did it at dawn since I was up.

Today was stressful but nowhere near the amount of pain I had expected. I didn’t get the job I went for last week, which I am frankly relieved to hear about for a variety of reasons I’d rather not blog about. The job I had the phone interviews for today (yes, plural) sounds like an awesome fit but could be high volumes of stress and possibly a lot of hours. I picture how well that would go with the Abramelin and my plans to get self employed and I want to go curl up in a corner somewhere and have a panic attack, cry, or both.

Went to a job fair later, and it got me numerous leads. Not bad! Maybe one will pan out, who knows. In the meantime, I am continuing to feel that I will be unemployed for longer than I would see as being comfortable, and I have no idea what to do. I am going to have to get creative.

This job search is sucking a LOT of energy out of me, and having job search related stuff from 9:30am-9:00pm with small breaks for eating and a quick workout probably didn’t help. I pray tomorrow will be a lot more balanced and a lot less like today.

Evening rite went well, and an insight: interesting that after two days of focused, intense purification I get a day like today. Hm.


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