Abramelin, day 70


Morning rite went well. My daily struggles with job and job hunting continue. I think the stress hit its all-time high today. Was IMed by a co-worker, then my boss, asking where I was. I had already sent out an email saying I would be out all week. Suddenly it’s “Where are you?” followed by “Will you be in tomorrow?” I need to find a clever excuse to continue working from home until I have a new job.

My mom is getting into her crazies again. I was taking a shower, and she came in and turned off all the lights on me. Somehow she didn’t know I was taking a shower, didn’t hear the water, I don’t know what. It’s a small bathroom. It’s going to be a long couple of days, and I really won’t be lying when I tell my boss I had to be home because my mother requires constant supervision.

Add all of this plus personal drama and attempting to focus on the Abramelin, and…holy hell, I am exhausted. I am mentally and emotionally exhausted.

I have two final interviews, one tomorrow and one on Tuesday. I pray to the gods that one of them pans out into something awesome that is a mutually good fit so I can get the hell out of here.

Gods help me.

Evening rite went well. It may have been my longest one yet. This has been the most challenging week I’ve had since my friend died.

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