Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.
Still chugging away at work. This is a strange place. I don’t mean that as a complaint; they just seem a bit disorganized. We’ll see how it goes.
I’m going back and forth between reading Seven Spheres by Rufus Opus and Domain Driven Design by Eric Evans. It’s whiplash.
Optimistic as ever.
Evening rite went well.
Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.
Heard back from the almond wand place, they’re trying to get in touch with the wand maker for an update and will let me know soon.
Work has picked up the pace DRAMATICALLY. In meeting #2 had this overwhelming feeling I was just where I needed to be. Everything is falling into place.
For the first time in a while, I’m feeling ridiculously awesome and optimistic.
Evening rite went well.
Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.
Had rite to Hekate in the evening, was a pretty intense ritual but one of those where I knew right after that the effects would not be immediate but take some time behind the scenes.
Leaf raking, that time of year. Am wiped. Came home after the ritual, did evening rite, then passed out.
Tomorrow is another day.
Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.
Good day in general: payday, got to leave early, went to the movies and out to dinner. Struggling to get enough sleep, hoping tonight will be far better.
Still reading Peter Kingsley’s Reality.
Evening rite went well.
Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.
Sleep depped but got some personal shit sorted out.
Day spent improving my diet and working out and getting shit done online. I feel so productive and I haven’t even been given “real” work yet to do at work.
Evening rite went well.
Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.
More sleep obtained, rest of Peter Kingsley’s book read. Two more to read.
Good day today but not without its challenges. Also got a Body Beast workout done. Hopefully will make a habit of this. Of course, now I am WIPED.
Evening rite went well.
Woke up in middle of night, could NOT go back to sleep, floated in between for I don’t know how long.
Went to sleep, and had the trippiest dream ever. One moment I was interacting with the characters from the tv show Charmed, the next I was interacting with my HGA. There was an obvious comparison between the “whitelighters” being paired with the witches on the show and the HGA. At some point in the dream I realized I had missed my flight to Florida where I was supposed to be spending the next two days, mentioned this to my HGA who said, “Oh no, I’m putting you on an assignment.” Next thing I know I’m solving some odd puzzle–a little too easily as I clicked on one thing and won–and wound up sending some video to a fellow magician/friend online. Then I was watching him watch the video, which was of some man with dark skin and very, very light blue eyes talking. I didn’t get to see what he was talking about because my friend fast forwarded to the end. I just know that the man in the video was VERY agitated. My friend then paused the video in time for the man’s two eyes to be one big, light blue eye in the center of his forehead, and he said “And that’s all I’ve got left.”
Woke up with a start about 10 minutes before my alarm was due to go off.
Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well…all things considered. Horribly sleep depped, was a zombie most of the day. It went by in a blur.
ZERO clue what that dream shit meant and I’m more than a little creeped out.
Another offer for getting me an almond wand online.
Evening rite went well.
Woke up in the middle of the night from an intense dream–at least I think it was a dream–where I had astrally projected into my living room downstairs. It was VERY vivid, and I knew immediately that I was “awake” and on the astral. Initially I panicked but then I saw this super tall, white glowing figure in the center of my living room. He radiated calm and everything around me glowed with a sense of joy. I didn’t feel joy but I saw joy. Very hard to describe. Everything was light, and everything was good.
I didn’t get much sleep after that as it took me forever to get back to sleep. My mind was just racing.
Morning rite went well, as did noon prayer rite.
I keep thinking about the astral projection/dream. Real Life’s “Send Me An Angel” keeps playing in my head. I’m running on very little sleep and had just enough energy to get work done, get home, and cuddle with kitties.
Evening rite went well.
Morning rite went well. I found myself awake at dawn and took advantage. As usual, one of my kitties heard my voice and came by to put her paw under my door. Sometimes she chirps while I’m doing the rite. I keep calling her my “temple kitty” and thanking her for keeping the evil spirits away. 🙂 Cats love mystical energy, but really…they just love the sound of mommy’s voice and want cuddles.
I went to sleep and had a very vivid dream of seeing some guy I didn’t recognize, dark hair and dressed in black, and right behind him was my friend who had passed. I remember wondering how in the world I was able to see her and the guy was also able to see her, and wondered if she would just pass through me, objects, etc. She was carefree, happy, and having a blast. I was glad to see it. At one point she literally bumped into me, and I called her name to get her attention. I awoke before we could talk.
Noon rite went well, am rather high after. Phase three does feel like the spiritual equivalent of the INSANITY fitness program, just what I’ve been asking for, for I don’t know how long. I feel like I’m constantly doing ritual now, constantly in the temple room. It’s both invigorating and exhausting. I’m finding long walks are great for clearing my head. I have NO idea what I will do in a regular job. I very much wish I could remain unemployed until this operation is over, but I literally cannot afford it and while my side business has gained much ground it’s not yet enough to live off of. Dammit.
Reviewing all of my notes on phase three and continuing to stress. Gods, I hope I get my shit together, do this rite right, etc. I know I’ve come a very long way, but holy hell I have a long way to go.
Evening rite went well.