Abramelin, day 174

Morning rite and noon prayer rite both went well, walk afterward.

I am beyond fried, barely motivated, and just holding on. I can’t quite put into words how I feel beyond feeling stretched tighter than a rubber band. I feel like I’ve read it all, meditated on it all…I’m just exhausted.

I’m probably overdue on purifications but I don’t have any sense or feeling on how much they’ll help. Right now I’m just going through the motions and hoping to make a number of breakthroughs to get me to where I need to be.

Evening rite went well.

One thought on “Abramelin, day 174

  1. blufli says:

    Hang in there. The AA maxim, “One day at a time” works here. It can also be broken down into one hour, minute…etc.

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