Abramelin, day 84

Morning rite went well. I spent today dealing with recruiters–lots of recruiters–and have applied for more places. Tomorrow I have decided to take the day off from job hunting and get some personal time in. I’m more than a little burned out, and I’m also quite frustrated.

I have a LOT of personal integration going, and I’m realizing that I need to clean up my own backyard before I start going off exploring, if that makes any sense.

So much energy going into physical realm and survival right now, so much stress…I am wiped, exhausted, and wondering if I am most certainly on the 18 month plan. I hope that regardless, I am on the right track. I feel like everything is screwed up. Ugh.

Evening rite went okay, I am falling asleep and had to drag myself in there. So tired. How do I get my shit together? What am I doing wrong?

2 thoughts on “Abramelin, day 84

  1. I don’t think you’re doing anything wrong. I think you’re doing just what you said, cleaning up the backyard. That is hard work. I’m glad you’re sticking with it. It’s no picnic, but it’s worth it.

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