Abramelin, day 248

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

Spent day relaxing with family, also managed to get more Abramelin incense and charcoal for the rite.

I keep getting jerked back and forth between normal awareness of what is going on and an over-abundant awareness of change and the passing of time. That whiplash again. Still battling personal bullshit too. Surprisingly challenging day, felt like review of past crap in a way. Wonder what made it come up. Reached conclusion later that I am sleep depped and it does me no favors. Gentle reminder to self to get better sleeping habits.

Evening prayer rite went well.

Abramelin, day 247

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

Got an early dismissal from work, was able to prepare and pack for Thanksgiving travel.

Very close to finishing my nutrition certification, have signed myself up for a class for my NASM fitness trainer certification as well. With any luck I should be able to take the test when I’m done and pass. Also got an invite to be on Rufus Opus’ podcast discussing my experiences with the Abramelin so far, so look for that. More details when I have it but should be in a few weeks.

It’s a time for dealing with loose ends.

Evening rite went well.

Abramelin, day 246

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

Still chugging away at work. This is a strange place. I don’t mean that as a complaint; they just seem a bit disorganized. We’ll see how it goes.

I’m going back and forth between reading Seven Spheres by Rufus Opus and Domain Driven Design by Eric Evans. It’s whiplash.

Optimistic as ever.

Evening rite went well.

Abramelin, day 245

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

Heard back from the almond wand place, they’re trying to get in touch with the wand maker for an update and will let me know soon.

Work has picked up the pace DRAMATICALLY. In meeting #2 had this overwhelming feeling I was just where I needed to be. Everything is falling into place.

For the first time in a while, I’m feeling ridiculously awesome and optimistic.

Evening rite went well.

Abramelin, day 244

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

Had rite to Hekate in the evening, was a pretty intense ritual but one of those where I knew right after that the effects would not be immediate but take some time behind the scenes.

Leaf raking, that time of year. Am wiped. Came home after the ritual, did evening rite, then passed out.

Tomorrow is another day.

Abramelin, day 243

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

Good day in general: payday, got to leave early, went to the movies and out to dinner. Struggling to get enough sleep, hoping tonight will be far better.

Still reading Peter Kingsley’s Reality.

Evening rite went well.

 

Abramelin, day 242

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

Sleep depped but got some personal shit sorted out.

Day spent improving my diet and working out and getting shit done online. I feel so productive and I haven’t even been given “real” work yet to do at work.

Evening rite went well.

Abramelin, day 241

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

More sleep obtained, rest of Peter Kingsley’s book read. Two more to read.

Good day today but not without its challenges. Also got a Body Beast workout done. Hopefully will make a habit of this. Of course, now I am WIPED.

Evening rite went well.

Abramelin, day 240

Woke up in middle of night, could NOT go back to sleep, floated in between for I don’t know how long.

Went to sleep, and had the trippiest dream ever. One moment I was interacting with the characters from the tv show Charmed, the next I was interacting with my HGA. There was an obvious comparison between the “whitelighters” being paired with the witches on the show and the HGA. At some point in the dream I realized I had missed my flight to Florida where I was supposed to be spending the next two days, mentioned this to my HGA who said, “Oh no, I’m putting you on an assignment.” Next thing I know I’m solving some odd puzzle–a little too easily as I clicked on one thing and won–and wound up sending some video to a fellow magician/friend online. Then I was watching him watch the video, which was of some man with dark skin and very, very light blue eyes talking. I didn’t get to see what he was talking about because my friend fast forwarded to the end. I just know that the man in the video was VERY agitated. My friend then paused the video in time for the ┬áman’s two eyes to be one big, light blue eye in the center of his forehead, and he said “And that’s all I’ve got left.”

Woke up with a start about 10 minutes before my alarm was due to go off.

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well…all things considered. Horribly sleep depped, was a zombie most of the day. It went by in a blur.

ZERO clue what that dream shit meant and I’m more than a little creeped out.

Another offer for getting me an almond wand online.

Evening rite went well.

Abramelin, day 239

Morning and noon rites went well.

Met with a few people from my Strega group in the evening for candle making, discussion, and dinner. They’re going to try to find me some almond wood.

Got numerous ideas, need to start rereading Kingsley’s books.

Evening rite went well.