Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.
I am now wondering, what if it’s true and that this job will continue to last until Jan? Maybe I do need those couple of months to get my shit together. I still feel like my head’s potentially on the chopping block and I don’t like it.
I’m wiped. I don’t want to have to think anymore. I want several weeks off with pay to just go stare at the ceiling.
Evening rite went well.
When I don’t want to think, to even know who I am, I meditate. Of course you have to get to the point where you can just be there, breathing, in the universe somewhere without a container of a body or the need to remember…anything. It’s my mental vacation from me.